While driving to work this morning, I hear familiar lyrics:
You can get lost in the music for hours, honey,
You can get lost in a room.
We can play music for hours and hours
But the sun’ll still be coming up soon.
The world’s just spinning
A little too fast
If things don’t slow down soon we might not last.
So just for the moment, let’s be still.
You can get lost in the music for hours, honey,
You can get lost in a room.
We can play music for hours and hours
But the sun’ll still be coming up soon.
The world’s not forgiving
Of everyone’s fears.
The days turn into months, the months turn into years.
So just for the moment, let’s be still -Head in the Heart, Let’s be Still
And all the sudden while driving to work, I’m transcended in time to ballroom lessons after work. Hearing this song over and over, as we stumbled through learning to foxtrot for our first dance. Such happy memories of a simpler time, when our biggest stressor was planning a wedding. In some ways I’m glad we chose an obscure song because on the rare occasion it plays on the radio or pops up on a playlist, I’m flooded with happy memories of our wedding and months we spent learning to dance.
So much of my life right now feels like it’s living in the “and.” It’s feeling the sheer joy of belly laughs while blowing raspberries mid-diaper change AND it’s longing for my life before motherhood. It’s missing date nights with my husband AND knowing I have never felt such a clear sense of purpose and meaning in my life. It’s longing for an uninterrupted night’s sleep AND feeling totally in love sandwiched between my baby and husband when my alarm sounds.
Maybe you’re living in the “and” too. Just know both can be true.
Motherhood is hard. Marriage is hard. And they bring such a richness and joy to my life.
